Hoping For Good News

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I’ve been thinking a lot about whether or not I’ll be asked to come in for an interview this month and what it could mean for my dream of becoming a counselor. If I receive an email letting me know that I’ve been selected for an interview, I’ll have a very good shot at being accepted. I seem to get a lot of emails throughout the day and have subsequently found myself bolting for my phone every time I hear an email notification.  It’s kind of pathetic, but whatever. I’m trying to stay positive about it all but I can’t help but wonder if this isn’t going to happen for me.

After I submitted my application in 2012, I had a bad feeling that I was not going to be accepted. It turned out that feeling was right. Honestly, I’m glad I wasn’t accepted last year because it would have been too hard to go to school and deal with all of my emotional issues at the same time. I simply would not have made it through the first semester.

But what about now? It seems like the perfect time to start a grueling master’s program to me. Oh I forgot, it isn’t up to me. The thing about waiting for any kind of notification about school is that I can’t control the process. I know that if I don’t hear anything by the end of February, it’s over. I’ll get a lovely little letter from the university letting me know that I suck at life have been rejected in April. So, basically this is the home stretch. It’s already Feb 11th and I’m clinging to the last bit of hope I can muster; and I’m slowly losing my grip. I have spent so much time, effort, and prayers into achieving my goal but there’s still one truth staring me in the face – it is not up to me.

Just because I want this to happen, doesn’t mean that it will. God just might have other plans for me that I am not aware of yet. If I do not get an email this month, I will need to evaluate whether or not I will continue to pursue this dream.  Obviously, I want to get accepted but it’s important to look at the bigger picture. I appreciate the support I have received from friends and family and for now, I will continue to wait and pray for good news.

2 thoughts on “Hoping For Good News

  1. God does have a specific plan designed for you. I know that it is hard to sit and wait, having faith in waiting on His plan to unfold. Please know that no matter what happens with UNCG’s decision to let you in this year, I am truly proud of you for who you are and all that you have accomplished. You are a beautiful, strong, independent, and intelligent woman and I am proud to have you as a sister.

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